Sara Hammerzmith

See, I find it interesting how I struggle so much reading only 30 pages in a course-literature book about communications in organizations, but reading a book about rapists and society’s view on rape I read 200 pages in just a day. And I’m about to continue, I’m just waiting for The Pretty Reckless’s most recent album to load into my iPod so I can review it tomorrow or Thursday. Despite it being out for like a month. Oh well. What are you gonna do.

On a happier side note, my pay for the work in the bookstore just came in. Do you know what that means?

SWEDEN ROCK FESTIVAL TICKETS BABY! Hell yes. At last. The tickets are about to run out, so I’m glad I finally got the paycheck. Jesus Christ, I got a little worried there. I’m so glad to be back in the game, to have quite a few festivals to look forward too. And I think a lot of it comes from the fact that I FINALLY are getting out of the study-dumpster I found myself in. “Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe…” huehuehuehue.

But first I need to finish this book. And by the speed I read it, I will be done by I don’t know, 2am tonight or something. But I also need to go to bed because I work early tomorrow. But I don’t wanna sleep I wanna read. Oh this eternal battle….

NP: Going To Hell – The Pretty Reckless

// Sara

After a few buts and ifs, I’ve finally submitted my application for school for this fall. I’m excited actually. One of the course I applied for has been a dream for me for a very long time, and I can’t wait to finally get started on it. I’m pretty positive that one course will help me get a better understanding in my job as a music-journalist, if anything. Or perhaps I can just work with it once I’m done. We’ll see.

The second course is perhaps not a dream as much as it is an expansion of my already running education. It’s a course that, if I get accepted, will help me be able to FINALLY improve hårdrock.com, which I got the green lights for today. It could also help this blog. Who knows. The third course is a bit of a dream, I guess, not as big as the first one, but one nonetheless. This is more in the back though, and I’ll let it take it’s time. But yes.

For the first time in forever I’m actually TRULY excited for school. And it’ll all be better if I manage to finish everything I have behind me this semester, and I’m on a good way if I may say so. I’m just preparing for the exam on May 6th, ironically three days after Stockholm Rocks happens. Damn damn damn. Hopefully a potion of Reckless Love, H.E.A.T and TNT can help me get the right amount of motivation. I also kinda NEED to nail it, as the next exam-date is right in the middle of Sweden Rock, and I really don’t wanna postpone this exam further.

Apart from that, for my journalistic course I’m now gonna start read a book called “En Riktig Våldtäktsman” (A true rapist). It’s the kinda the follow-up for “Flickan och Skulden” (The girl and the guilt) and is a journalistic book about, well, rapists and society’s view on rape. I wasn’t sure at first what book I was to choose for this assignment, but as it is a blog-assignment and I need to write my own viewpoints, I figured it was best if I chose a book on a subject in which I have a lot of opinions and feelings about. Which I do with rape, rape-culture and society’s view on it.

Who would have thought huh. However, I’m not gonna bring up a discussion about it on here. I’m trying to keep this blog free from political standpoints, or, really, anything like this. So this was as much as you get, but hey! At least you now know there are a lot more going on in my head than Frozen and heavy metal.

I’m a bit late with the assignment though. Like, two weeks overdue. Which is ironic. It’s a journalistic course. The number one thing is to keep deadlines. I guess deadlines never bothered me. Anyway, I better get started. And this will sure as hell give me nightmares. Good thing Elsa is just across the room.

//Sara

Let It Go. That is REALLY what I have to do, but I can’t. I’m just sitting here an boiling over the whole Fatal Smile situation.

After reading a few statments from Rockbåten, Blade and Alx to begin with, I’m just furious. And then after reading Shameless singers statement I’m just… exhausted. I just sit here and stare at the wall and wonder how the hell… how, why, did this happen. What the hell. How can someone just…. God.

I’ve discussed this back and forth with a bunch of people today and we don’t really come to any conclusion more than that neither one of us understand it. Fine enough that you wanna leave the band. Fine enough that you wanna disband it. But like this. No.

God.

I’m not really one to even say anything about this, but I’m just boiling up. Me, and a bunch of my friends got screwed over by this as we were all looking forward to see Fatal Smile either during this tour or during the summer. It just… gah. I’m burning up over here.

God. God. GOD.  I should really just let it go, but as you see, I just fucking can’t. Not for now. GOD.

// Sara

So, how many more than me where shocked to learn about Fatal Smile yesterday? I can’t be the only one. I mean, come on. It literally came out of the blue. CD coming out, big tour going on… what the hell man?

I was very confused when I read it. My first impression was that Yxan was just simply leaving the band (at a very bad time) but the more I thought about it, and the more times I read it… the whole band call it quits? Wait what? I understand that bandmembers at times have to leave for whatever reason it may be, but to put the whole band to sleep seems a bit… drastic? And it didn’t get any better given that their drummer said he didn’t even see it coming.

It’s all just odd. But well. What can I say. It’s a shame. I was really looking forward seeing them at Skogsröjet, hell, they were one of the bands I was going there for! I always loved seeing Fatal Smile live, they were one of the greatest livebands to date. I have a good deal of great memories with them – everything from Lordi 2009, to Rockweekend, Skogsröjet and the evening at Glada Ankan together with Anna and a few more.

Thanks for all you’ve given us, Fatal Smile, and good luck all of you in the future!

Taken at Rockweekend 2010

// Sara

Alright folks, as I’ve told you before, changes were gonna happen. And the first change I did was to change my blogname from saradronjak to hammerzmith. I started this blog seven years ago, “together” with a friend (She made a blog, I made a blog) and at the time I was infatuated in Oscar Dronjak from HammerFall so badly I chose to name myself and my blog after him.

Years have passed, and even if I still love both Oscar and HammerFall, I have definitely outgrown the ‘phase’ of naming myself after my favorite rockstars. People who do so – be my guest. It’s nothing wrong with it. I personally felt it was time to move on from it, and by that, also getting my blog in synch with my Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram… A lot easier to find me now.

So, from now on, my blog is called hammerzmith.wordpress.com . Note that out people!

Thanks you all!

// Sara

Alright. I just wanna do some heads up.

In the next couple of days, a few changes will be made for this blog, and therefore I might not write at all for a few days. All changes will be announced both here and on other social medias, so hopefully you won’t miss out.

// Sara

Yesterday was the day. FINALLY did my most recent order from Disney Store arrived, after the postal office had held it hostage for a few days. You see, when I picked the box up I literally went all like “Elsa please, I know you’re in there…. I’ve been asking where you’ve been…” God damn.

Do you know, this is the THIRD TIME I try to get a hand of this doll. Third time’s the charm, right?

Oh well. At last, Elsa’s home. Finally it’s not looking so empty on the Frozen shelf in my room.

Jesus christ she’s precious. The box though… I almost had to demolish the whole thing. No, I didn’t actually break it, but it was built in a way you had to open it up and fold it out, of sorts. And please, NO. I do not, neither here or on Facebook or any other social media, wanna hear any bullshit about “my God, you shouldn’t open the box”. It’s my doll, I have no intentions of selling her, and if I ever do, it will be MY OWN fucking problem that I’ll have to sell her cheaper. I’m sorry I have to write this, but people have literally told me these things before. So as Elsa’d say, “I know, you mean well, but leave me be…”

However, the doll wasn’t the only thing that was in box. As you might remember, for Valentines I received an Elsa themed cup, and after having it for a time, loving it to death, I decided to get her sister’s cup as well. They are so gorgeous and hand it ain’t even true. And surprisingly, I found Anna’s almost being a little more… interesting? than Elsa’s. It had a lot more detailing in the print.

Mm. I can just tell you, this was exactly what I needed right now. Nowadays when I wake up the first thing I see in the morning is the Elsa doll and it makes me smile.

At last. Oooh.

// Sara

I’m not sure if there’s any music out there that inspires me more than H.E.A.T’s music does. When I hear their music, I just… come alive. I don’t know what it is. But I just do. I start looking forward to summer, looking forward to concerts and festivals, despite me going to most of them alone.

Something about it that just… sets my mind to peace. The funny part about it all I guess is that H.E.A.T doesn’t have any specific lyrics in particular, (or maybe I haven’t paid enough attention to them, I’m not gonna deny that factor). Yeah.

I don’t know. I just know I had a lot of things I was ‘supposed’ to do today, but I have done nothing. But it’s alright.

Because, what’s the chance that, in 20 years or so, we’re laughing at tomorrow?

// Sara

I’ve spent the last few days listening to pretty much nothing but H.E.A.T’s new album. I won’t write about it on here until it’s fully released because of reasons, but I can tell you one thing. They get better and better for every album. However, I’m absolutely positive I’ve heard the chorus of  “Mannequin Show” somewhere else before. I almost had it last night, but then I remembered I had fall asleep as I was about to work in the stable today. Damn it. I WILL find out though.

Really, I haven’t said a whole lot this week. There are many reason for this actually. Mainly, time. I try so hard to keep up with my studies, work-applications and the job I have now. And I’m also in the midst of a CD-releases inferno, as you’ve noticed. Another reason is that I’ve decided to stay off social medias for a while.

I tried this the other day and noticed quite instantly first of all, how much freaking time I got over to do other stuff. You know like actually going through my closet and fidining clothes and accessories to sell. I’m about to put it up any day now. I also got a whole lot less stressed, seeing I don’t have to interact with people that do nothing but steal energy from you and reading a lot of pointless stuff.

I’m gonna need to head back for the next month though, as my hiatus as an admin on a Frozen fanpage ends then. But for that matter, I’ll probably only be on a few times a day, and my mainpriority will be to admin that page and to check off important stuff. So if you wanna reach me, I might just as well throw it out here that you’re more likely to reach me on my phone.

With that said, I’ll also announce that I for the first time EVER, realized that plucking your eyebrows isn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Or perhaps I’m just getting used to the pain. I’m glad I finally got over my fear for it though, maybe I can tame my “so called” eyebrows now without using the not so trustable eyebrow-shaper-shaver thingy. Damn it.

// Sara